In my life I have always been fascinated by the ideas regarding eternity and spiritual things. Once a pastor at the chruch I was attending signed my bible and wrote PROV. 3:5,6. Honestly I could not wait to see what was in those words. When I got home and read it, the words kind of sank into my soul. It said "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path". I was 11 at the time and I could not imagine that I would try so many ways to make those words real in my life.
I have been in several Christian organizations from Southern Baptist, Seventh Day Adventist, Mormon, Bible Baptist, Lutheran and now Episcopalian. Despite all of that I have never relented on my own inner search. I have studied philosophy, Psychology, various other religious beliefs, and have come away still feeling I am missing something somewhere along the way.
I do believe that the one thing that I have learned over time is tolerance for others beliefs. I cannot help but think that there are many like me who are constantly searching for answers in various forms and from various sources. My hope is that I will continue in my search and find a closer connection to the Eternal, however that is presented to me. I also hope I am open enough to the ideas yet have enough doubt so that I can analyze the experience completely without falling into the oft paralyzing affect of emotions so that I may continue my inclination to a higher self.
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