I want to tell you a bit about my life. There are others on this site who can inform you better than I can about subjects of mutual interest, so if I cannot give information, maybe I can give myself.
I started getting sick around age 8. I was manifesting somatic complaints, but I think what I was experiencing were the effects of trauma. Later in life I was to do trauma work and recall some things that I am not sure I want to. Be that as it may, bad neurology, multiple near death experiences, but always striving to be a true servant of God - it actually paid off.
I can see the hand of God guiding me, through all the sickness and pain, to just where I am today, a Rosicrucian and a Martinist. Things I learned from a South Indian man set me up most immediately, but there were many things throughout my life where I dumbly turned down this road or that, only to have it wind up being the road in life that I needed to take. Many times it was not pleasant, but at all times I was being made a better person, shedding unproductive ways like a snake sheds its skin.
My point, then, is not the trials I endured. It is the imprint of the Divine on everything we do, whether we know it or not, whether it seems like the Divine would do such a thing. The Grand Architect of the Universe is doing a splendid job of organizing things. No matter how it seems, it is best to let him.
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" In Tibet, the monks and nuns even offer prayers of gratitude for the suffering they have been given: “Grant that I might have enough suffering to awaken in the deepest possible compassion and wisdom.”
The aim of spiritual life is to awaken a joyful freedom, a benevolent and compassionate heart in spite of everything." ~ Jack Kornfield
Thanks for your feedback and helpful comments. The Great Repairer - that's a good concept that I had not thought through. Thanks.
Brother Douglas perhaps there is a degree of progression that the self would like to attain and in theory one would involve itself with that motivating situation.
Some day those letters of the personal word written across the sky of the Great Mother will be yours in realization. It is difficult to say exactly what is needed to achieve this prominent position.
Consider some ideas from the recent Pantacle, that of the Christ and that of considering Christ as the Repairer. The idea is not so much of a building up rather that the self had fallen from a high estate and now in striving to realize those heights again, it turns towards Earthly principles especially that of the Christ to assist, as the great Repair, in restoring the equilibrium to the level that the Person of Desire can summon so that the New Person can, with the Great Repairer, heal these mistakes of the past that caused the fall. Let the Old Person be of the past as the Person of Desire together with Christ walk into the new self of the New Person.
Great thoughts! Thanks for sharing.